06

one of the best feelings in the world
is the one you get when
you're standing in front of a loud speaker at 10pm
nodding your head.

the bass is turned up high, and you swear it's louder than the guitars
and you can barely hear what that guy in the red shirt is saying into his microphone.

you can feel the vibrations in your bones...it's even a little bit hard to breathe.
it's a little bit stuffy.
and your breath gets lighter and lighter with each pluck of a string
and your eyes want to bleed and you stomach turns, screaming "ican'ttakeit i can't take it"

then walking home in the cold wind
alone
with only a t-shirt on and some skinny jeans that are no longer skinny on your legs.




anyway, today i tried to find this feeling.
and when my eyes opened for the first time this morning i realized that i can't ever sleep again.